February 28, 2012

Life as of Late

My life has consistsed of a lot of athletic events as of lately. Gymnastics, basketball. Ya know the deal. I gotta say, I love being a Beaver.

So here is the evidence of such: (all with my roomers)
PINK OUT-note to self: I don't own pink.

Band

Gymnastics Meet-Pink Out. OSU vs. UCLA and CAL

Civil War Game-ignore my ginormous arm.
Please and thank you.

Beaver Belivers

OSU Vs. U of O


Final: OSU 73 UofO 74.
I've also done a smidgen of going out on the town. Loving life. Wearing heels. Acting like Ladies.
Aubrey, myself, and Rose @ Harrisons

Mine was yummy chocolate and coconut. LOVE

Love my roomie

Please ignore the obvy drunk man holding onto Aubrey cuz we look fab.

Fear is Just a Lie

Fear happens when we believe a lie. Satan is the Father of lies.

I do not want to beleive the lies Satan has put into my head anymore. I am done. God is God of light and truth, and I will go to Him when I feel the pressure of this world and the lies it feeds.

"You are not good enough, pretty enough. You don't work hard enough. You're not skinny enough. You don't make enough money. You don't dress the RIGHT way."

I don't know what lie you're believing, but I do know that God is greater. His promises are bigger. He is stronger than the lies of Satan. I hope this video encourages you as much as it did me.

February 27, 2012

Hives. Gluten. Swelling. Itchy. Benadryl.

These words have ruled my world for pretty much months. (Since October or so.) I started getting random swelling spurts, hives attacks, etc etc.
But it's getting worse, to the point where it is almost everyday. And it is becoming a nightmare.

So here is my vow, since it's on my blog, to go to the doctor and figure out what in the world is wrong with me.

February 26, 2012

I am beautiful. And so are you.

Here is some weird honesty.

I wish I weighed more. I wish I was taller.

Not what you hear out of most women, but for me it is true. I am a stapping 5 feet tall. AKA short. I work with elementary schoolers, and some of them are taller than me. And I'm their teacher. When adults come in looking for the leader, I blend right in. Yep. I'm that person. Yay me.

I weigh about 100 pounds. Details don't need to be disclosed more than that. I feel weird even saying that on my blog. But I wish I weighed more. Clothes do not always fit me the way I wish they would because I am so small and petitie.

So here is where everyone says, "But you're so cute and petite!" Yep, I am cute. Just what every 20 something woman wants to be. CUTE. Puppies are cute. Babies are not. Not 20 somethings. 20 somethings are hot things. But not me. I'm cute.

I'm challenging myself to read Psalm 139 everyday. God made me like this for a reason, and even if I don't always feel it or beleive it, I am beautiful, simply because God made me that way. I'd love for my readers to join in with this challenge too. If you take it, comment, let me know! I want to be praying for you and I want to hear how God is working through this.

As women, we need to stand up and recognize the worth God has given us. My mission is to be completly whole in the Lord. To know I am beautiful and special in my little own way. Maybe God made me petite (aka SHORT) so I can reach youth better. Or maybe he made me skinnny so that I can show others what a small person is capable of. I don't know. But I'm excited to find out.

Psalm 139
 You have searched me, LORD,
and you know me.
2 You know when I sit and when I rise;
you perceive my thoughts from afar.
3 You discern my going out and my lying down;
you are familiar with all my ways.
4 Before a word is on my tongue
you, LORD, know it completely.
5 You hem me in behind and before,
and you lay your hand upon me.
6 Such knowledge is too wonderful for me,
too lofty for me to attain.
7 Where can I go from your Spirit? Where can I flee from your presence?
8 If I go up to the heavens, you are there;
if I make my bed in the depths, you are there.
9 If I rise on the wings of the dawn,
if I settle on the far side of the sea,
10 even there your hand will guide me,
your right hand will hold me fast.
11 If I say, “Surely the darkness will hide me
and the light become night around me,”
12 even the darkness will not be dark to you;
the night will shine like the day,
for darkness is as light to you.
13 For you created my inmost being;
you knit me together in my mother’s womb.
14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful,
I know that full well.
15 My frame was not hidden from you
when I was made in the secret place,
when I was woven together in the depths of the earth.
16 Your eyes saw my unformed body;
all the days ordained for me were written in your book
before one of them came to be.
17 How precious to me are your thoughts,[a] God!
How vast is the sum of them!
18 Were I to count them,
they would outnumber the grains of sand—
when I awake, I am still with you.
19 If only you, God, would slay the wicked!
Away from me, you who are bloodthirsty!
20 They speak of you with evil intent;
your adversaries misuse your name.
21 Do I not hate those who hate you, LORD,
and abhor those who are in rebellion against you?
22 I have nothing but hatred for them;
I count them my enemies.
23 Search me, God, and know my heart;
test me and know my anxious thoughts.
24 See if there is any offensive way in me,
and lead me in the way everlasting.

February 22, 2012

Love.

I first heard this song during the superbowl. I am now obsessed. Literally. On repeat for dayyyys.

February 15, 2012

Hello.
Meet the most distractable person ever, aka ME.
I have homework to do, lots of it actually. Lots and lots of reading. And a lot of cleaning. What have I been doing? Pinterest. Facebook. Talking on the phone. Painting my nails. Schudeling my classes for next term. Um, pretty much anything BUT the homework I need to be doing.

Ah, restless heart of mine. I'm just so excited! I am blessed and I want to scream it from the mountaintops. Life is exciting right now. God is doing so much!

Did I mention eating? Oh yeah. FOOOOODDDD.

And here I go, at 10:30, attempting my homework once again. Here I come Social Development.
See my pretty nails? Yep.

February 14, 2012

Valentine's Day

Today is Valentine's day. (and also the birthday of my beloved state, Oregon!) If for some reason you forgot, facebook or all the valentine's stuff around will remind you. I made special valentine's out of paint chips for all the kiddos at work. They are very precious and I'm excited to give them to them! (One of the other bonuses of working at an elemntary school)

I don't feel alone today, although I am single. I don't feel sad. I know it is not the time for me to have a special someone in my life. I know God will bring this man in his timing, and I will patiently wait in anticipation of that. I trust in God, what He has told me, and his beautiful beautiful promises to fufill them.

Today, after work, I get to quickly dress up and spend an evening with some of my favorite people in Corvallis, my college group! What a GREAT way to spend Valentine's Day-the holiday to celebrate love. What greater love is there than Gods? So excited to praise Him tonight with people I love and who love me. <3

I would also like to announce I have a new obsession: Mumford and Sons. So good. Been listening on repeat very very loud. Oh by the way, sorry neighbors.

February 9, 2012

I'm out of clever titles

I've decided I'm happy.

I'm happy without you. Yeah, I miss you. But I don't need you. I don't like who you've become and the way you live your life. Who knows? Maybe you will change and we will find our paths crossing again one day. But for now? I don't care. I don't want it. I don't want you.

I still pray for you. I always will. I want you to know the Lord and to follow Him. I'll always love you and the time we spent together. Thank you for that.

"You know what I don't, so help me to let go. You're in control, so help me to let go" -Let go by Matt Hammitt

You make Beautiful Things

Based on one of my favorite songs from Gungor, Beautiful Things, I made this for my wall.

It didn't quite turn out the way I was hoping, because the stencils for the letters didn't work towards the end, but I'm realizing thats part of the beauty of it. It isn't perfect, much like us. But God makes us beautiful. He makes our sin, our bad choices, our dirt all beautiful.

Listen to the song:


I have a bible I rip up and use just for crafts. I used it for this project. Michael's was having a GREAT sale on canvas, so I bought a 7 pack for $10. Yes, all you crafters know this is a big deal. Then I ripped up the pages and modge-podged them all together to the canvas. I let it dry overnight and than started by painting the bird stencil on in black. Then I layed out notecards where I wanted the letters for the words to be, painted it, and wa-la!

February 7, 2012

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Seeing you smile, even in old pictures, makes my heart happy. I only hope you can be as happy in the future as we were then.

February 3, 2012

Time keeps moving on-through the sunshine and the rain

Exciting stuff going on in my life. Here is just a snippet of it.
  • Applying, interviewing, and considering camps for this summer in North Carolina, Pennsylvania, Colorado, Maine, Maryland, Washington, California, and Indiana
  • Finishing up my Biblical Studies degree from Corban!
  • Looking into  and applying to jobs/internships within my field
  • Eating healthy breakfasts every day (detox smoothies)-so great. you must try.
  • Started a workout plan with my roommate. Love it!
  • Sunny WARM days in Oregon. It was 60 degrees today. In FEBRUARY. This never happens.
  • Feeling a lot of peace and comfort about where God has me in life. I seriously believe and know that it doesn't matter what comes at me next. God is going to take care of me.
  • Feeling peace about finances and the future
  • Grad Schools. EEEK.
  • Other news that I'm SUPER excited about but I can't announce yet.
  • Going to Salt Lake City, Utah over spring break to work with Mormans and sister wives
  • Fun activities and cool stuff going on at work-so very blessed by this job
  • Still mustering up the courage to get my nose pierced. Wanted to for years. Not quite there yet.

Life is beautiful. Life is good. Its a journey. Its crazy. But I love it.