July 26, 2011

Hiding Place

you are my hiding place

Did I mention I have a knack for fitting myself in small spaces? 
When I was a kid in Pennsylvania, my hiding place was under the stairs in the basement. In California, in my bedroom as a child, my hiding place was behind the corner piece of my furniture. As I've grown up, my hiding place has become a bathtub. 

Psalm 32:7, "You are my hiding place; you will protect me from trouble and surround me with songs of deliverance." 
I'm reminded again and again that God wants to be my hiding place. He wants me to run into His arms with my joy, hurts, and everything in between. 

Hiding Place by Starfield
In the shadows, I can hear Your voice,
Singing to me
In the valley, I can hear Your heart,
Reaching for me now
And I weep flooded with the strength of Your peace

You're my defender, the shield of my heart
You are my hiding place
When terror surrounds me, You keep me from harm
You are my hiding place

In the darkness, I can feel Your light,
Wrap around me
In my suffering, I can feel Your joy,
Rising in me now
And I weep, flooded with the strength of Your peace

Here before You, Jesus
In this place,
Here before You now,
Face to face

Under the shelter of the Most High
Will I be safe, and will I abide

July 18, 2011

It's been a while

Well, it certainly has been a while since I posted a blog post. I'm not really even sure people read this, so my apologies to whoever does read this.

I've been going through a lot lately. The trials just kept on coming, one life shattering event after another. I've had a very very difficult year, to say the least. I think I am starting to see the light at the end of the tunnel. I think I am beginning to accept the difficulties and the challenges they have brought me. I am accepting the whys, the questioning and the reasons, even though they are unknown. I accept that God is having me go through this now to have this be better in the future and so He can use me.

A couple of weeks ago at Evan's church, Pastor Nick's sermon titled, "Where is God in our Suffering (Obadiah)?" That message came at a perfect time for me. I kept asking God where he was, wanting answers, and he delivered. God has a way of doing that, but always in His timing. One of the things Nick said was,
"if God can bring good from the cross, he can bring good from what is going on in your life." 
I had never thought about the cross that way. It opened my eyes. I'm learning more and more that I need to be trusting God, which is like DUH, but it's a very hard application.